To sin or not to sin, to follow and obey Jesus or to do as you please are your own decisions. Nobody can force you or do it for you.
If you wish to follow Jesus and have the hope of eternal life, you have to do what Jesus requires.
Jesus requires that those who wish to follow Him repent(turn away) form all sin, stop sinning, be baptized in water and live in obedience to His commands(His teachings). You have to obey what Jesus commanded, as it is also recorded in the gospels, Matthew, Mark, Luke and John.Those are the conditions for the hope of salvation.
If you disobey, or only partly obey Jesus Christ, you cannot follow Him and you will not have eternal life, you will not enter His kingdom. Believing in Jesus and confessing that you believe in Him, will not save you, if you do not obey Him.
Infant baptism is invalid. You have to be baptized by your own decision and your own confession of faith in Jesus, or else it is meaningless. Baptism itself does not save you, but disobeying Jesus disqualifies you for entry into heaven.
Baptism is not about the person doing the baptizing but about the person being baptized. Any fellow follower of Jesus can baptize you. It need not be a member of a church or a person ordained by a church organization.
If you want to have salvation you have to follow and obey Jesus all the way, until the end. Have you been baptized after believing in Jesus and repenting of sin?
May Jesus bless you.